try to love him more

 

There is a time in my loneliness when I ask myself; do I really love Him?. Do I love Him more than everything in the world?. Do I come to Him as soon as He calls me?. 

He gives me the greatest love, more than my parents', my friends', Whoever in the world. Only He whom knows my biggest sin. ,my secret that I'll keep till I meet  the day, end of my life.

I can't trust anybody. Even my best friend. I wont tell everything about my life to him/her.

Only He whom I can trust

because I know my secrets will save in His hand

He always  cover my sins in front of people

He knows when people knows my sins they will judge me, and treat me like a trash.Yes I am, I'm a trash

But He still loves this trash. He still allow me alife

He still makes all my wishes come true

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But I'm afraid, what about if He Punishes me, for all of my sins at last

on the day when I can do nothing but crying

It is so hard for me to love Him more than everything

I must take many consequences, to Love Him

Many and I don't know I can be responsible with my choice or not

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Fortunately He has given me a little thing what so called iimaan

for this reason

my answer is, I have to

I can 

I Try to be able to do so

I hope this will be easier than before as realize, that now I can write this all because of HIM